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ladyofleithianDoing okay. Sinus problems are clearing up at the moment, though I'm still rather stuffy. Head feels a bit less like a Dalek eyestalk is trying to force its way out, which is good (for those not in the know, basically this: http://www.the-medusa-cascade.com/gallery/displayimage.php?pid=491362&fullsize=1. Sorry if I couldn't exactly get a clearer image, but yeah, I felt like one of those poor bastards from "Asylum of the Daleks" that had a Dalek eyestalk bursting through their skull). Mostly just worried about the matter of school, to be perfectly honest. I know that yeah, it's technically my second year of college and I shouldn't be this intimidated, but yeah, here I am. Stuff like talking with Mom and watching more of The Big Bang Theory with her, Dad and the dog (my brother doesn't really watch Big Bang Theory) definitely helps, at the very least, at easing the tension -- we're on season four right now. I think it's something about being involved with Sheldon and the gang, in a way, that at least takes my mind off of the matter of how 2013 has been. (Then again, I think all good...forms of media, for lack of a better word, do that. It really doesn't matter whether or not it's high art, in the end; if it somehow enriches the life of someone else, then it's worth it. Hell, it doesn't have to be high art to do that. I can only hope to do that in my works one day. I think if I can somehow entertain someone, I've done my job)
I guess the thing is in regards to 2013 is...it hasn't been all bad. I know stuff like seeing Star Trek Into Darkness and Iron Man 3 I wouldn't trade for the world (and I know these films, especially Star Trek Into Darkness, have definitely meant volumes to me), and there have been a lot of other things as well (for example, my birthday) that have definitely meant a lot. But I guess regarding 2013, I know a lot's been happening. I know 2012 was kind of rough at least for me, but 2013 -- it just feels like so much stuff is happening that it's making my head spin. I can't even really describe what's going on, but everything's going so fast I almost can't catch up. Call it a case of "stop the world, I need to catch my breath". I know it's been kind of made fun of from time to time (see also the Nostalgia Critic's whole "I don't want change!" bit from that whole LOONEY TUNES editorial), but in all honesty...well to paraphrase Kirk in Star Trek Into Darkness while he was dying...how do you accept change? Some changes I'm excited about (as sad as I am about Matt Smith going, for example, I'm pretty damn excited to see Peter Capaldi stepping into the role. Seriously, he'll be splendid), but most...they're going by too fast and too much, and I almost can't catch up.
How does one accept change, I can't help but wonder? And more than that, how does one stay strong despite whatever comes their way? I've never been terribly strong, to be honest. Not since I was a kid. I guess the best I can do is tough it out, but I've never exactly been very tough. I think the only reason I'm still here is just...sheer dumb luck, I guess. The best I can do is at least find a way to sort of do my best on the first day back at college. That and there's four months left. Really, after all that's happened thus far in 2013, it can only get better from here.
At least I hope.
And I know I'm probably overreacting and overestimating the danger (I know I tend to do that too), but I can't help but be afraid.
I guess the thing is in regards to 2013 is...it hasn't been all bad. I know stuff like seeing Star Trek Into Darkness and Iron Man 3 I wouldn't trade for the world (and I know these films, especially Star Trek Into Darkness, have definitely meant volumes to me), and there have been a lot of other things as well (for example, my birthday) that have definitely meant a lot. But I guess regarding 2013, I know a lot's been happening. I know 2012 was kind of rough at least for me, but 2013 -- it just feels like so much stuff is happening that it's making my head spin. I can't even really describe what's going on, but everything's going so fast I almost can't catch up. Call it a case of "stop the world, I need to catch my breath". I know it's been kind of made fun of from time to time (see also the Nostalgia Critic's whole "I don't want change!" bit from that whole LOONEY TUNES editorial), but in all honesty...well to paraphrase Kirk in Star Trek Into Darkness while he was dying...how do you accept change? Some changes I'm excited about (as sad as I am about Matt Smith going, for example, I'm pretty damn excited to see Peter Capaldi stepping into the role. Seriously, he'll be splendid), but most...they're going by too fast and too much, and I almost can't catch up.
How does one accept change, I can't help but wonder? And more than that, how does one stay strong despite whatever comes their way? I've never been terribly strong, to be honest. Not since I was a kid. I guess the best I can do is tough it out, but I've never exactly been very tough. I think the only reason I'm still here is just...sheer dumb luck, I guess. The best I can do is at least find a way to sort of do my best on the first day back at college. That and there's four months left. Really, after all that's happened thus far in 2013, it can only get better from here.
At least I hope.
And I know I'm probably overreacting and overestimating the danger (I know I tend to do that too), but I can't help but be afraid.
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