Disconnect and Self Destruct One Bullet At A Time

...what's the rush now; everyone will have his day to die...

No, I'm not feeling suicidal; that song's just stuck in my head for some damn reason. XD

But yeah...currently feeling sore, recharging my batteries, etc.

Good things:

-Emeriin replying to my comment. She's really cool (and yeah, I guess I shouldn't get too excited about comments, but...I'm kind of lonely here. XD That, and after feeling sore as hell and struggling through

Things that freak me out:

-Still feel like fever-wasps are hatching in my chest. (*Insert bad joke about the Chest Monster here*) Damn you, M. Night Shamwow!

-My Internet hates me.

-This may seem like a stupid reason to worry, but I keep checking back at the prompts I posted on the kink meme and no one's really answered. I guess I shouldn't be comment-whoring, but this is really, really new to me. And I'm kind of wondering, "Did I do something wrong? Was I intruding?"

Then again, tgwtg_fic tends to be really nice to newcomers, so maybe I'm just overreacting. :)

Writer's Block: Nothing to fear but fear itself

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Oh Jesus, I have a *lot* of fears...

Sharks. Tsunamis. Body Horror. Mental illness of any kind. Being overweight. Freddy goddamn Krueger. Fucking Black Swan. Not being good enough. Being ignored. Being ridiculed, especially after I worked hard on something. Humans are Bastards. The list goes on and on.

(Seriously, I think I inherited the whole "worrying" thing from my mom. :)

Anyways, I wouldn't call it "overcoming", but the fears do pass in time. I've been talking a bit with Freddy (as a fictional character, that is) and when he's "off-duty", he's quite a decent fellow. (To make sense of it, I've been getting to know him via writing him) And besides, dying in your sleep's a pretty rare occurence. I mean, it's very real, but it's still rare.

Mostly, though, I try to deal with my fears via comedy. Something about taking the piss out of scary things just really helps. That or logic: sharks mostly attack because they mistake their human prey for seals (mostly because their eyesight is as terrible as mine. XD), tsunamis don't happen too often and if they did they'd have the warning system. And so on and so forth.

A bit off-topic: I got my personality test back (you know, for potential careers), and got an ASR (Artistic-Social-Realistic) result. Ironically, considering that "Law" was on the list of subjects I'd most despise, one of my suggested careers was "attorney".

Still, it was pretty interesting, seeing my results.

And I also have an internship at a theater. Whoo! XD

Writer's Block: Nothing to fear but fear itself

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Oh Jesus, I have a *lot* of fears...

Sharks. Tsunamis. Body Horror. Mental illness of any kind. Being overweight. Freddy goddamn Krueger. Fucking Black Swan. Not being good enough. Being ignored. Being ridiculed, especially after I worked hard on something. Humans are Bastards. The list goes on and on.

(Seriously, I think I inherited the whole "worrying" thing from my mom. :)

Anyways, I wouldn't call it "overcoming", but the fears do pass in time. I've been talking a bit with Freddy (as a fictional character, that is) and when he's "off-duty", he's quite a decent fellow. (To make sense of it, I've been getting to know him via writing him) And besides, dying in your sleep's a pretty rare occurence. I mean, it's very real, but it's still rare.

Mostly, though, I try to deal with my fears via comedy. Something about taking the piss out of scary things just really helps. That or logic: sharks mostly attack because they mistake their human prey for seals (mostly because their eyesight is as terrible as mine. XD), tsunamis don't happen too often and if they did they'd have the warning system. And so on and so forth.

A bit off-topic: I got my personality test back (you know, for potential careers), and got an ASR (Artistic-Social-Realistic) result. Ironically, considering that "Law" was on the list of subjects I'd most despise, one of my suggested careers was "attorney".

Still, it was pretty interesting, seeing my results.

And I also have an internship at a theater. Whoo! XD

Gakked from Aunt_Zelda

iPod Fic Meme!
1. Put your mp3 player on shuffle and take the first 25 songs it gives you.
2. Link to the lyrics.
3. Let people choose a song and assign character(s) to write a drabble to.
4. Any titles not striked through are open for choice.
5. People may assign up to 5 fics.
6. Chosen fandoms:

Avatar The Last Airbender, TGWTG, Knights of the Old Republic, Star Wars (PT or OT), Planescape Torment, Lord of the Rings, Hunchback of Notre Dame (Disney), Firefly/Serenity, Twilight (don't shoot me. XD), Eragon (same), Harry Potter, Legend of the Seeker, American McGee's Alice and Nightmare on Elm Street.

7. After all songs are used, repeat step one.

Note: Kind of used the Youtube links for the soundtrack (as well as one for the live performance of "The Swan Song"). Everything else is lyrics.

1. In The Devil's Snare/The Flying Keys (Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone soundtrack)
2. Stellar by Incubus
3. Dechire from Notre Dame De Paris
4. Epiphany by Staind
5. Mal Decides by David Newman (Serenity soundtrack)
6. Trading Station Robbery by David Newman (Serenity soundtrack)
7. Cry Little Sister by Seasons After
8. Everything You Ever Wanted by Hawk Nelson
9. Colors by Crossfade
10. Learn To Do It (Waltz Reprise) from Anastasia.
11. Song To Say Goodbye by Placebo
12. Deceiver by Disturbed (WARNING: Nightmare Fuel beyond this link.)
13. Sayuri's Theme by John Williams (from MEMOIRS OF A GEISHA).
14. Frozen by Within Temptation
15. Planet Hell by Nightwish
16. The Swan Song (live) by Within Temptation *
17. Master of Puppets by Metallica
18. Krwling by Linkin Park (don't shoot me. XD)
19. Send Me On My Way by Rusted Root
20. A Happy Ending by Chris Vrenna (American Mc Gee's Alice)
21. When I Look To The Sky by Train
22. The Noose by A Perfect Circle
23. Hogwarts Forever/The Moving Stairs by John Williams (Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone soundtrack)
24.  Never Gonna Be Alone by Nickelback
25. Gathering All The Na'Vi Clans For Battle by James Horner (James Cameron's AVATAR soundtrack)