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ladyofleithian17. Who was the last person you kissed? (If you are still with them now, pick the person before them.) What would they say if they saw you now?
To be perfectly honest, I don't think I've really kissed anyone. I know it definitely sounds strange, but...well, I just haven't. I mean, when I was a kid, one thing I dreamed of was getting a boyfriend, or growing up and getting married, if only because I was so influenced by what happened in the stories I read, and because I was a dreamer at heart -- I guess it really was sort of influenced from what I'd seen in stories at the time. If there was one criticism I'd have of these stories in hindsight, it's that they presented a very sort of idealized view of love that's all well and good as a kid but not so much when you're older. I guess as I got older, I just developed into "not the dating kind". Nothing catastrophic, but...y'know. That or I'm just waiting for the right person to come along. My mom says they might. I guess in terms of what I'm looking for, I'm looking for someone I can be comfortable with, who I can lean on when times get tough (because no woman's an island, after all), who can make me happy by just being around them...because really, I think that's really important in a partner.
So I can't say that I've kissed anyone. And I'm nearly an adult, which probably proves how sad I really am. At least, I have a feeling that others would probably view me as sad. And it's such a stupid thing for others to no doubt view you as sad over, but it's true. So I can't say that I can really talk about people I've kissed, but people I've had a crush on, yeah. I remember just having some boys in elementary school that I thought were cute, a close friend from middle school who I thought was awesome and kickass and stuff like that (and who now follows me on Tumblr years later. The universe and its bargain-making is a beautiful thing, isn't it?), and my flute teacher in elementary school, who I thought was just awesome (although he could be strict. Awesome, but strict)...and I think that's it. I mostly went through a lot of crushes in elementary school, to be perfectly honest. I think, to be honest, if they saw me now, they'd say, "Jesus, you've changed." And I'd say, "For the better or the worse?" And they'd say, "Maybe both?"
Because I have changed a lot. I've become a bit less naive (but really, only a bit, because there's still parts of me that are very naive. I believe my mother once said that I have the emotional age of fourteen years old. Which...yeah, again, I'm sad), I'm a little angrier (and really, where do I begin in terms of things that make me angry? Prejudice, suffering, stuff like that...), I'm a little quicker to question things, etc. In short, I grew up. I think the thing about growing up is that it has good and bad in equal measures. On the one hand, you become more aware and independent and confident, but on the other hand, you kind of learn a hell of a lot of things you never wanted to know, people seem to change around you, and you have that sort of painful realization you can't really be a kid anymore. You can revisit your childhood, but you have to take on adult responsibilities as well, you have to start worrying about your life plan, stuff like that. So I think with adulthood...well, it's equally cursed and blessed all in one.
18. Talk about your extended family. Why do you think they are the way they are?
19. If you could be anywhere in the world, but you had to be there for a certain cause, where would you be and why?
20. Again, pick a song that projects the mood of your week or day.
21. Look back. Why did you choose this challenge? Do you think it says anything about you?
22. How do you think people see you? Be a little negative and a little positive.
23. Explain your life plan for the next month, then the next year, then three years, then five years.
24. Are you more social or independent? Why do you think that is?
25. What do you think it means to be a good parent?
26. Talk about a moment where you were truly happy. What was happening? Who were you with?
27. Is there a friend you are worried about? Why do they have you concerned? Do you think they’ll be okay?
28. Would you rather someone tell you the truth up front but gently, or be lied to to spare your feelings?
29. If you could be doing the same things you do now, only in your own way, how would a normal day in your life go?
30. Look back on this last month and talk about it.
To be perfectly honest, I don't think I've really kissed anyone. I know it definitely sounds strange, but...well, I just haven't. I mean, when I was a kid, one thing I dreamed of was getting a boyfriend, or growing up and getting married, if only because I was so influenced by what happened in the stories I read, and because I was a dreamer at heart -- I guess it really was sort of influenced from what I'd seen in stories at the time. If there was one criticism I'd have of these stories in hindsight, it's that they presented a very sort of idealized view of love that's all well and good as a kid but not so much when you're older. I guess as I got older, I just developed into "not the dating kind". Nothing catastrophic, but...y'know. That or I'm just waiting for the right person to come along. My mom says they might. I guess in terms of what I'm looking for, I'm looking for someone I can be comfortable with, who I can lean on when times get tough (because no woman's an island, after all), who can make me happy by just being around them...because really, I think that's really important in a partner.
So I can't say that I've kissed anyone. And I'm nearly an adult, which probably proves how sad I really am. At least, I have a feeling that others would probably view me as sad. And it's such a stupid thing for others to no doubt view you as sad over, but it's true. So I can't say that I can really talk about people I've kissed, but people I've had a crush on, yeah. I remember just having some boys in elementary school that I thought were cute, a close friend from middle school who I thought was awesome and kickass and stuff like that (and who now follows me on Tumblr years later. The universe and its bargain-making is a beautiful thing, isn't it?), and my flute teacher in elementary school, who I thought was just awesome (although he could be strict. Awesome, but strict)...and I think that's it. I mostly went through a lot of crushes in elementary school, to be perfectly honest. I think, to be honest, if they saw me now, they'd say, "Jesus, you've changed." And I'd say, "For the better or the worse?" And they'd say, "Maybe both?"
Because I have changed a lot. I've become a bit less naive (but really, only a bit, because there's still parts of me that are very naive. I believe my mother once said that I have the emotional age of fourteen years old. Which...yeah, again, I'm sad), I'm a little angrier (and really, where do I begin in terms of things that make me angry? Prejudice, suffering, stuff like that...), I'm a little quicker to question things, etc. In short, I grew up. I think the thing about growing up is that it has good and bad in equal measures. On the one hand, you become more aware and independent and confident, but on the other hand, you kind of learn a hell of a lot of things you never wanted to know, people seem to change around you, and you have that sort of painful realization you can't really be a kid anymore. You can revisit your childhood, but you have to take on adult responsibilities as well, you have to start worrying about your life plan, stuff like that. So I think with adulthood...well, it's equally cursed and blessed all in one.
18. Talk about your extended family. Why do you think they are the way they are?
19. If you could be anywhere in the world, but you had to be there for a certain cause, where would you be and why?
20. Again, pick a song that projects the mood of your week or day.
21. Look back. Why did you choose this challenge? Do you think it says anything about you?
22. How do you think people see you? Be a little negative and a little positive.
23. Explain your life plan for the next month, then the next year, then three years, then five years.
24. Are you more social or independent? Why do you think that is?
25. What do you think it means to be a good parent?
26. Talk about a moment where you were truly happy. What was happening? Who were you with?
27. Is there a friend you are worried about? Why do they have you concerned? Do you think they’ll be okay?
28. Would you rather someone tell you the truth up front but gently, or be lied to to spare your feelings?
29. If you could be doing the same things you do now, only in your own way, how would a normal day in your life go?
30. Look back on this last month and talk about it.
