ladyofleithian | Epilogue: The Story of How I Lived (Reply)

In which everything comes full circle and a new adventure begins.

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Author's Notes: Well, it's been fun. I've always wanted to write my own spin on what would happen with Rose in the Doctor's role, and...well, it's been a lot of fun. Difficult, but fun. Also, I definitely recommend croissantkatie's art for this, because it's amazing: http://croissantkatie.livejournal.com/35196.html

So this is it. The story of how I died. While one wouldn’t say “died” -- after all, we Time Lords can regenerate -- one could say that it wasn’t quite the same afterwards. Every time I change, it feels, in a sense, like dying. From the ashes of a previous regeneration comes a new one. And while there are many things worth regenerating for, such as to save the innocent, this...I don’t know if this was. I still wish that I hadn’t had to use the Moment, to Time Lock Gallifrey and the war -- but at the same time, what choice was there? Rassilon would have destroyed the universe if I didn’t.

Ace and I are still doing what we can if only to make things right. I can’t say that it’s easy, but it’s a step in the right direction. Doing what’s right.

We’ve picked up a new companion as well. Martha Jones. Lovely girl, very nice, very resourceful. She’s proved to be good company, really. I still don’t quite understand why she’s choosing to travel with someone who, for all purposes, is a madwoman with a box, but at the very least, she’s made it clear that she’s not leaving us. Ace and I have tried to leave her behind, but she’s persistent, and very loyal.

She reminds me a bit of how I was when I was younger, when the idea of the Master and I becoming enemies was unspeakable, and the Time War a bad dream. More grounded, perhaps, but the traces of me are there nonetheless.

We’ve already faced the Judoon. They kidnapped the hospital where she was working and sent it to the moon to find a psychopathic killer. Like you do, I suppose. The Judoon are persistent in terms of their need for justice, but sometimes I wish that they didn’t have to do something like this. Then again, they are the Judoon. Dedicated, but simply refusing to think things through. I just hope that we don’t have to undergo something like this again.

In the meantime, Martha, Ace and I -- well, we’re traveling the universe in this TARDIS, seeing the world and everything it has to offer. Ready to make miracles, ready to see the wonders of time and space. It really is better with four, I think. I didn’t take Grace with me if only because she has a future outside traveling inside the TARDIS with me. I’d love to take her, but she has a lot of things to do. Making miracles as well.

I doubt that I’ll ever quite be right again. But hopefully, I’ll be on the way to recovery. Martha and Ace are helping. It feels almost like the old times -- when I first set out from Gallifrey to see the stars. And perhaps together, we can make things right.

Better with three, as I would say.